Distance
Do you remember the times when you were younger? What did you look forward to everyday? What do you say or do when you finally see your parents after a day's work? Some would run towards them, hugging them tightly. Some would exclaim loudly, "Mummy! Daddy!" But what about now? Do you still do that?
I have always stayed with my grandparents since young, or at least when I had any conscience recollections. Every friday night, I would go back to my parents' house for the weekend. That was what I looked forward to for the entire week; to go back and spend a weekend with my parents. I would then have wonderful suppers, shopping and my lego castles. I remembered making mother's day and father's day cards, putting in my utmost effort and thought. It was nothing impressive, but it always brings across the messages so well.
Roll on 10years or maybe more, I am 22. I am in university now, so much older and with so much more experience yet comparing certain traits of childhood, I have become a shadow of a man. I used to love going back; now I do not even want to go to my parents' house. I used to make cards for them to tell them how much they mean; now it takes considerable effort just to greet them. For people so close, I see them roughly once a week; yet I don't even miss them. And going through so many years of schooling and learning how to communicate and write, I have forgotten how to express my love towards them. Or maybe, I have forgotten love itself.....
SrslyJude
5:15 AM
